I think the reason I committed myself so fiercely to my government transparency investigative work was because I lost everything and everyone that I ever loved in my life, and I wanted to let go of believing in the possibility of feeling joy within my own life so I could dedicate myself to protecting others […]
Journal
Sea Stories – USS Bataan (LHD-5) – 2007 – 2008
During a day at sea, I was sitting in an office with my fellow first classes, and we were taking a moment to coke and joke (take a break). We were telling jokes, talking about life underway, and having a good time. Then, all of a sudden, we heard the doorknob move, and everyone stopped […]
Phalanx Training Day 21 of 245
Physical Training Upper Body Walk: 7 miles Academic Training I am writing a letter to Pastor Post of Redeemer Lutheran Church to respectfully request that he mentor me as I study the writings of Martin Luther. Pastor Post’s sermon on Wednesday deeply moved me because it restored a trust within my soul that was broken […]
The Form of the Blade Runner
I have been a Trekkie my entire life, but during the time my soul connected with investigative work, lawful civic information warfare (Iowa Code Chapter 22), research, and building AI/Automation workflows I have to confess I am a Blade Runner now. This movie series is my jam. #tech #noir #cyberpunk #ai #automation #cybernetics #meaning #real […]
Spiritual Transformation
The most challenging and spiritually transformative experience of my life has been building court cases related to my investigative work. I felt a personal duty to honor every U.S. Navy Chief Petty Officer who trained me and helped shape the man I became. I sought to fuse those skills with my study of the law […]
The Transcendence of Castle Pyre
When I was stationed in Seoul, South Korea, I was assigned to SUSLAK, an NSA/CSS (National Security Agency/Central Security Service) facility. During one mid-watch, my watch supervisor put on the album October Rust by Type O Negative. When “Love You to Death” played, I was blown away, and I literally replayed the track for 12 […]
The Form of the Spiritual Lighthouse
I have spent many years of my life lost at sea trying to find answers regarding what the country that I served truly represents. Then a beautiful lighthouse radiated light into my soul, helping me realize that much of what once consumed me cannot lead humanity toward the Kingdom of Heaven. The only thing that truly […]
The Form of Clarity – Transitioning from the Cipher Hunter to the Pyrebird
If I knew I only had one more hour to live, would I spend it investigating someone else’s lies (government transparency investigations), or expressing the Truth of what I believe and what I feel while holding a guitar?
Phalanx Optimization – Day 14 of 245
Physical training Upper/Lower Body Weight Training 4-mile walk (approximate, within city limits) Academic training Plato’s Republic The Sea of Sloth – The Paradox of Depression The only way to heal depression and deal with loss is by doing the very things we do not feel like doing. Those are the bricks in the new castle […]
I dismissed my active court cases and deleted a 15,000-record database because I have experienced things in recent months that have helped me see and understand with greater clarity. I feel a true spiritual calling to become a licensed private investigator who protects the innocent and those who cannot protect themselves. In order to do […]
